Cheating Post

okay, started with my ReTweet about zodiacfact of geminis, for some case I do believe that every zodiac sign had similiar character, just like blood type. You must check it out in my previous post about that, almost all fact about your character is true, ehhhe...and the rest about prediction of horoscope... hummm I do not believe it, there's no way all the same zodiac sign had the same activity at once too... strange, huh...Back to topic of writing, since (looks like) I love writing about everything EXCEPT my self, noted that, I won't write about inside of mine or reveal my heart HERE, the conseques is hard to handle, ehheee... one of my friend said it's not true, almost all af my blog talk about my self... yaa.. yaa.. could be, it's all about around me and how I bring it into informative and a little persuasive, and succesfully make some of my reader envy.. right?! hihiii...thanks to her anyway, I started my blog because of her, she had a beautiful and courageous way of writing, she can tell everything even about her heart bravely...

well, if one day you find me write about heart you might see the different side of me, side that I hide.. that could be change your preception about me... hahaha okay, enough I think I bring you too far about this, sssstttt......it's persuasive one anyway

I found Interesting about topic of an essay to aply a job as a reporter in one of Indonesian daily newspaper : " Reason to be a reporter"

it is max. 2000 character long to tell it, wew.. I even had three simple reason of doing that, that can be implied by 3 senteces : first, I love photograpy. Second, I love travel and Third, I love writing. aaaalll that I love and love, concern about reporter's jobdesk, I think that's all that I need, PLUS if love what you do, you will get maximun quality, isn't? as bachelor degree of agriculture I hope I can put all that I love in right specification : write about agriculture

Bike...Bike....Bike...!

ahaa! I have similiar pictures here... When I was child, riding my 3-wheel-bicycle, my first bike anyway... then I had another bike when I was on elementary school, and nowaday when I graduated from university, on bachelor degree, my father still bought bicycle for me...Thank you, I love youuu daaadd...

Do you remember rollerblade or scooter? it used to be famous, rite? I even had rollerblade too, I used to think that playing rollerblade is cool, like celebrity do, ahaaa (lebay), but it took no longer, the bicycle-mode still exist, I don't know why, but in my opinion bicycle is most useful than other... and thanks for people who thinks "green" and take bicycle as solution for transportation, make it nowaday-lifestyle...

I think goverment should support by making bicycle-way (is it right? what does it call?) and proper pedestrian, I'm sure everyone will use it if they are comfort within, like their own vehicle... yahh..Bad habit of indonesian, they get a little bit lazy to walk from nearest shelter to their destination, so public car, like bus or angkot can stopped wherever they want and it cause traffic jam too. The volume of vehicle is getting bigger every year, but in other side the road- growth can't handle situation. So the only solution is public transportation, but some factors ruin the image of public transportation like vadalism, criminal on public car, prestige (maybe) of having car, and also uncomfortable means. Some country had good transportation system, this video showed japan's bike storage... ahhh I wish I can used subway and riding bicycle through destination..I know...I'm in developing country now, I have to wait... to see how indonesian's subway lookslike

Yesterday, I ride Mico with kitties...

Isn't it cute? huaaaa the basket had special task, to put all 4 kitties in... they are not used to take a ride on bicycle, they can stay for a little journey and then burst up, hahahaa...be nice to mico, and I think perry started to enjoy the ride,

Too Naive

okay, where to start.. lately I got at least two phenomenon? incident? or what? something that lead to conclusion I was too naive to face those things, my friend said

world is full of bad guy

first incident happen when I ride BIBOP to campus, I hit the deep hole and looks like it the cause of my tire collapse, hummm okay, alone, I count my self to make it, stay cool, at least I know what to do, go to baggage, take the extra tire and jack, and call my dad, I started panic, because I was late and got some trouble here, I just expect my dad give some instruction to do that, just to make sure I do the right step, but my dad keep asking me to search people to give some help, okay... I just make my dad panic too... later, I calm down

inspite of late, I called k' dedi to told that I might be late to campus because my tire is collapse, but it makes k'dedi ask where I am, and want to help me out... another one is panic,

just me and my self on the road, analize if I put jack on the right position, and it works, okay next changing the tire, while my half-work done, someone come to me and help me out, ahhh thank God anyway, while he changing my tire we had some chat, and finally done.

to be honest I just don't know what to do, I just say many many thank to him, after he gone away, soon I got in car, it was raining...sit in silence, I just feel something that I supossed to do, I looked my phone, there are so many missed call from my dad and k'dedi, then I called my dad, told everything okay, someone had helped me out... and my father remind me, did I give some money to man who helped me? "nope" I said "should I?" (okay, it silly question anyway) I just replaced if I were him, if I want to help someone, just help. I didn't expect more, I might be offended if someone gave me money.

maybe this thoughts is totally wrong, I was too naive, people aren't the same. If he need it, I'm sorry, because I was too naive, I just pray from deep inside my heart that the man who helped me got more than just money after helped me, amiiin...

the extra tire need more air, still in feeling sorry because I didn't give money to that man, I go to tire shop to fill the tire with air, ya I know I should pay for this, rite? I did this before, but in fact it's free...ahhhh what a strange day,

I forgot to called k'dedi, hiahhh.... where is he? it's raining too.. he is on the way, and I asked him to get back to campus, thank you and I'm sorry k dedi....

and the second incident is exactly happen yesterday, a motorcycle hit my mom's car, I was there too, it's horrible, seeing the rider meet the aspahlt right in front of us, it's totally shocking moment for me, I can't stand imagine what happen next, the man is old enough, and riding the motorcycle with full speed. Well, of course we get a little chaos here, thanks God it's just a little scracth on him, he still can stand and grumbling, of course the man who felt guilty will tell more alibi without being asked.

Motorcycle vs car, sometime motorcycle always claimed being victim because the damage and risk is higher. Sick and tired listening the argument, with smiley face I take him to clinic (I was acting to make him stop mumbling). he looks a little surprised, and calm up. At the clinic he admit that he ride motorcycle fast. Okay, mission completed that sometime you don't need extra muscle to make someone admit his fault, people in the dark always dazzled with (even) a little shine. Anyway, I think we have done our responsibility, it left a bad damage too in my mom's car, worse than his motorcycle. Fair. But you know what, when his friend came, he tell the opposite thing and keep asking the compesation to my mom, I think it's the beginning of exortion.

hhhh....I get mad, and sorry to say, this is make the educated and non-educated people different, "educated" here mean their behaviour, the good people, will makes good impact to their life too. non-educated behaviour makes someone bad. Well, world is full with bad guy, and some trouble caused by bad guy, and need bad-way-solution too, to make it, should we??

everybody is goin' crazy...let God deal with the things they do.

Hello December

Hello December! I guess some of my college friends are happy today and waited for this lovely month, It's graduation month and right on 1st day of desember the ceremony is held... well, even I loose my target to graduate this year, I'm happy for you guys

You still can find me at campus if you miss me anyway, wkwkwkwk... in a couple month I enjoy my life as student college, you guys must be envy to me (devil laugh) did I said "I'll be missing these things" before?

Let's talk about future. To face the real life, struggle way is needed to accomplish your life and also being perfect, any mistakes that you made is big price to pay, unlike student do, where mistakes made to be learnt (whoaa... so, the pressure that I had while doing my thesis, it is just a little part huh? big thanks for my lecturer). It doesn't mean when you graduated you stop learning from mistake, it's just make different impact when you do a mistake, I'm talking about responsibility too. Sure, everybody learn their every-day-life-lesson. Well, that was my humble opinion of working-life, I wonder is it monoton or dynamic life? sometimes I found working people need more holiday than student do, does it mean they easily get bored because monoton life? ehehee...

I used to be the one who doens't have visionary way of life like others. Since I know how perfectionist I am, hahahaa stubborn is fixed most : failed in planning something or don't get what I want is giving huge negative impact for me, easily breakdown and upset... looks like I would not make any decision for future, until I Learn My Lesson that life ain't that damn hard when you love it..

Yesterday for today, today for tomorrow

someone comes, and it remind me with his magic words this morning, yes it is something for me! Brighten up my december morning, happy to the max! (lebay)

Thanks God for blessing me with beloved person around, need extra understanding to stay beside me, ehehe...

Consistency

it's true that picture told a thousand words

it's lollypop, it's half eaten, it's not round, it's not colorful, but still it's sweet....

what did you get from them?

so many... but why I'm thinking about consistency, candy always sweet from started until the last suck no matter how it shaped, no matter how it colored...It's different when you talk about gum, (is it gum kind of candy?) heheee whatever it is, they have similiar thing that everyone started them from the sweet taste... I remember when I was child, my mom told me to throw away gum when they're not swet anymore, don't swallow them, ya dangerous and sticky...

when talking about heart,

always be lollypop, even your heart half left, you can give the sweet taste until the end, rrrrrrr...what I'm talking about It's just about consistency anyway,

Here, your lesson...

Finally, on November 25th

my minithesis seminar held, it already postpone for 3 months since my lecturer scheduled it, and rescheduled over and over, until I get depressed and tired, I can say that I was no longer patient that time, look....my older post, you can see how upset and tired I was, now I just laught it out, hahaha~ ... and thank God, the seminar sucsessfully held, at least I found no difficulties in presentation or answering the question, I wasn't nervous at all, is it because I was so ready? I don't know, I just thought it is something that normally should be happen, and my euphoria of seminar is empty.. well, that was good point, even overall I'm not satisfied yet with my presentation, messy and unformal one I think,

so, here the lesson :

(1) just like my mom said "there's no one can break someone down"

her advice give me energy 1000 times before, recharge me fully, thanks mom... Iwas so naive for blaming someone, and it's totally WRONG

(2) be patient, see what happen next

(3) don't blame anything

(4) sometimes loosing euphoria or not get too excited on what will you do can make you calm, and think wisely, hahaaaa..kinda weird but hey! it proofed, try it...

okay, esspecially on point no. 2 I think I already told it before, hummm so, it's 5th lesson, you will tested of what you said before, be consistent

Hasil lamunan di jalan tol

hasil lamunan saya dijalan tol tadi pagi... cibubur-bogor 15 menit, mau sepi, mau padet tolnya... heran juga saya, (semoga post ini ga dibaca papa....) karna saya selalu di jalur 3 dengan kecepatan 120-130 km/h , mobil kecil bisa terbang si rasanya...heheheee, dan itu pasti disalip2 sama mobil yg gede2, dengan kecepatan konstan segitu, ujung2nya ketemu juga di jalur 2 nya sama yg mobil nyalip saya itu, ujung2nya sama juga waktu berentinya di gerbang tol, itu yg saya bisa tarik kesimpulan selama konsisten, ga pindah pindah jalur, ternyata saving energy dan mengurangi resiko lho...

jadii... ini catatan kecil di kepala saya waku di jalan tol,mirip-mirip sama sudut pandang kehidupan yang kita jalanin ko...

Ungkapkan Saja...

banyak cara buat mengungkapkan kemarahan, dari yang salah banget sampe yang bener banget, hummm...apa ya contoh yang salah banget, biasanya yang berdampak merugikan, ga buat dirinya sendiri tapi orang lain juga akibat kemarahannya, misalnya ngerusakin barang sambil joget2, (hahhaaa.... ga lah ya) sambil ngomong kata2 kasar, ato bisa aja sambil nonjokin orang, amit2 sampe ngebunuh segala, kalo yg itu setan udah ikutan,,, kalo yang bener banget, mengalihkan marahnya itu dengan berbuat sesuatu yang produktif, contohnya... beresin rumah, ngelap genteng sampe mengkilat, bikin lagu, lari2, apa aja yang berguna buat diri kita dan bagusnya si orang lain ikut kecipratan, (kalo gini mah sering2 aja ya orangnya dibuat marah)

well, itu tergantung orangnya juga anger managementnya gimana, saya bahas sedikit tentang karakter kepribadian sanguinis ,melankonis, plegmatis, koleris..

> Seorang Sanguinis yang spontan, lincah, dan periang

> Seorang Melankolis yang penuh pikiran, setia, tekun

> Seorang Koleris yang suka petualangan, persuasif, percaya diri

> Seorang Phlegmatis yang ramah, sabar, puas

itu yang saya liat di blog orang, menurut saya karakter-karakter itu ada hubungannya sama cara mengungkapkan perasaan, misalnya aja marah itu tadi, heuuu saya ini orang yg kayak apa ya..mau bilang melankonis..saya bukan orang yg tekun,,mau bilang phlegmatis...apa iya saya ramah? okay, ambil yang menurut saya dominan, plegmatis (harusnya ikut testnya) orang yang katanya ramah, sabar dan puas ini...banyak memendam rasa karna sabarnya itu, dia bukan orang yang suka jadi center of attention karna dia rasa dengan cara mengungkapkan apa yg dia rasa dapat menimbulkan konflik...lebih baik berpura-pura ga ada apa2, puas sama keadaan yg dia sedang hadapi, beda sama orang yang sanguinis, yang lebih menonjol dalam kehidupan sosial, kalo bisa semua orang tau apa yang dia rasain, dia juga bisa jadi "nyawa" dalam suatu komunitas, karna ramenya itu.. dalam hal mengungkapkan perasaan, sama kayak koleris, nah si melankonis ini kayaknya 11-12 sama phlegmatis, bedanya melankonis ini bisa jadi drama queen agak lebay dan sepertinya masalah dia ga ada abisnya, mungkin kalau si phlegmatis ini lebih sedikit realistis,

se-engga nya dengan mengetahui karakter orang itu, kita tau harus bersikap gimana, dan ga kecewa karna cara mengungkapkan apa2 ga sama dengan dia, ikan di laut ga mesti ikut asin kan kalo dia hidup di laut kayaknya ungkapan ini salah deh (_ _") yahh pokoknya gitu... cukup ungkapkan saja, saya percaya setiap orang menggunakan cara terbaiknya untuk mengungkapkan sesuatu, tugas orang lain yang diungkapkan yaa...cobalah sedikit berfikir dari sudut pandang dia, heehehee

sekian posting ga berarah dari saya,

si phlegmatis,

life's lesson

well, things don't always turn out that way.. saya termasuk orang yang perfectionis, mau segalanya berjalan sesuai dengan rancangan yang udah saya buat, maksudnya si gitu... tapi kadang orang terdekat saya, bahkan orang tua saya mencap saya sebagai anak yang keras kepala..ga jarang sikap ini membuat saya stress juga, namanya juga hidup, identik dengan sifat dinamisnya, kadang ga sesuai dengan apa yang kita mau, manusia boleh berencana tapi Tuhan tau mana yang lebih baik gitu kata orang tua...

Ada baiknya kalo kita sabar, dan ikhlas. yes, it's two simple thing dan kedengeran klise banget (dulu menurut saya) tapi sekarang saya bener2 tau kalo dua hal itu emang sikap yang paling ampuh buat ngejalanin hidup , that's life's lesson kita ga akan bener-bener tau apa rasanya sampe kita yang ngalamin sendiri.

I'm in comfort zone, dan lagi males-malesnya bergerak dari satu situasi ke situasi lainnya, mencoba ga mengganti posisi, tapi yaaa mana bisa begini terus, bisa2 ditabrak kalo ga ikut lari,.. Oke, saya lagi ngomongin nasib SKS skripsi dan seminar saya,

and the important point is, schedule yang udah kita rancang sebaik-baiknya meleset terlalu jauh.. jalannya ga semulus apa yang kita rencanain, entah dosen saya sakit, proposalnya tembus (lho?!), jadi waktu ketemunya ga dapet2, data analisis blum ada, dan yang terakhir, ibu teman satu penelitian saya sakit parah, dan dia mesti pulang.. dosen pembimbing saya langsung minta temen saya pulang hari itu juga, and that's mean seminar-sidang kita ditunda sampe teman saya ini pulang, dia minta waktu 1 bulan, humm... di satu sisi, saya dan teman saya bisa aja tetap ngadain seminar dan skripsi tanpa dia, toh dia udah mempersilakan kita buat duluan.. di satu sisi, kita memulai ini dari nol sama-sama, unfair kalo kita ga nunggu dia sebentar aja biar sama-sama selesei juga, dan saya rasa dosen pembimbing saya sebagai bapak ingin memperlakukan anak2nya secara adil...

itu dilema besar buat saya, saya udah capek ngejawab pertanyaan orang-orang kapan lulus? kapan seminar? kapan sidang? dan keadaan ini bukan saya yang mau, ini yang namanya mesti sabar karna keadaan... and it proved, memang mesti begini keadaannya.. ibu teman saya ini meninggal, bayangkan apabila saya paksain unuk tetap ngadain seminar sebelum teman saya itu pulang, apa jadinya perasaan dia..

sampai sekarang saya belum dapet kabar dari dia, smoga dia cepat bangkit dan recover dari musibah yang dia alami.. amiiinnnnn...

belakangan ini saya sering konsultasi ke dosen pembimbing saya, beliau tidak hanya mengajarkan ilmu science yang dibahas sebatas skripsi saya ini, beliau cerita tentang kejadian yang dia alami sehari-hari, seperti bapak yang bercerita ke anaknya selesai pulang kerja, toh beliau sendiri yang bilang, kalau kita ini sudah tidak dianggap sebagai anak bimbingannya tapi dianggap sebagai anak kandung sendiri, it's really touch me..

apa yang saya dapat dari beliau, ilmu kehidupan tentang orang lain dan diri sendiri, serta sang pencipta... then never regret about decision that we had if it doesn't turn out our way, just wait and see what happen next, you'll be more and more grateful of being patience,

sometime we no need to be a rush, it's time that makes your heart bigger to accept everything, even the bad one,

Desperately Understand

kemarin untuk hari ini, hari ini untuk besok

well, I got it... dia khawatir untuk apa yang akan dia hadapi nanti, bukan khawatir dengan apa yang telah dia tinggalkan, why am I so late in understanding his thoughts ? however, Thank You for giving me time to understand

with love,

indecisive

saya anak tunggal, dan saya sangat sulit membuat keputusan.

Mungkin untuk sebagian orang statement tadi memiliki korelasi yang cukup kuat, karna biasanya si anak tunggal ini biasa dikendalikan oleh orang tuanya,semua perhatian tercurah untuk si anak dan si anak tinggal terima beres. Tapi posisi yang saya punya ini jauh berbeda, orang tua saya adalah orang tua yang luar biasa. Mereka memutuskan berkeluarga di usia muda (mungkin dimulai seumur saya sekarang ini), sampai sekarang mereka mempunyai cara sendiri untuk mendidik anak mereka, dan menurut saya berhasil. Meskipun saya anak tunggal, mereka memberikan tanggung jawab sepenuhnya kepada saya atas keputusan yang telah saya ambil. Contohnya ketika saya SD dulu, orang tua saya membiarkan saya nonton TV seharian atau main seharian, padahal besok saya harus ujian, orang tua saya cukup mengingatkan saya kalau besok ujian, tidak melarang atau menganjurkan saya main, bagaimana caranya nilai saya nanti bagus, karna menurut mereka saya main2 sebelum ujian adalah keputusan saya, dan saya harus mempertanggungjawabkan nilai saya nanti. it's fully my decision... sampai sekarangpun sampai saya kuliah orang tua saya tidak pernah melarang saya, ataupun memaksa saya harus memilih ini-itu yang baik menurut mereka. Perasaan saya agak sebel juga karna mereka terlalu netral, sampai2 saya berfikir mereka ini sebenarnya peduli sama saya atau tidak. Tapi dengan begini saya memiliki rasa tanggung jawab yang sangat besar dengan keputusan yg saya ambil sendiri, saya harap saya bisa belajar dari semua keputusan yang saya alami.

Sikap ini membuat saya menjadi orang yang bisa dikatakan kurang tegas, apa iya orang-orang disekitar saya terlalu sayang sama saya, karena setiap saya tanya pendapatnya, semua netral. Belakangan ini saya mengalami dilema yang cukup besar, saya benar2 tidak tau harus bagaimana, dan saya insist ada orang yang saya tanya punya satu jawaban dari masalah ini, bukan saran/pendapat lagi,

ini jawaban salah satu teman saya :

[P]

[N]

[D]

[R]

[2]

[L]

ini tuas yang ada di mobil matic", katanya, "sekarang lo ada di posisi netral, tinggal lo pindahin tuasnya, mau maju, mau mundur, lo pas-in posisisnya"

"kalo nabrak gimana? gw kan perlu orang disekitar gw sbagai spion, biar pas" kata saya

"biar lo rasain dulu, rasanya nabrak gimana, dengan begitu lo tau harus terus maju ato mundur" kata teman saya

saya anak tunggal, dan saya sangat sulit membuat keputusan.

sekarang saya sudah mengambil keputusan, dan saya sudah memindahkan tuas saya dari posisi [N], life must go on...

A Second Chance

hhhh... mulai deh postingan gak jelas lagi, padahal saya pernah janji ke diri saya gak akan cerita tentang perasaan di blog ini, tapi saya pikir2 mungkin ini bisa dikategorikan sebagai sebuah pemikiran saja..heheee ngeles padahal si udah gatel ini..

yang saya tau kesempatan kedua itu adalah mengulang untuk memperbaiki dengan belajar dari kesalahan yang sudah dibuat sebelumnya, well we won't know unless we try begitu semangatnya kita untuk memperbaiki diri diawal, ketika kesempatan kedua itu diberikan dan menemukan kembali kesulitan yang pernah kita temui sebelumnya,

mungkin...orang yang menghargai kesempatan kedua itu akan mencoba jalan yang terbaik, berbeda dengan langkah sebelumnya yang pernah dia ambil dulu ketika menjadi kesalahan.. tapi keberhasilan langkah yang diambil selanjutnya menentukan apakah kita tergolong orang yang menghargai kesempatan kedua atau tidak? sayapun merasa gagal dalam menjalankan kesempatan kedua ini...apakah saya ini orang yang benar-benar tidak bisa menghargai kesempatan kedua?

keberhasilan itu kata sifat, bersifat relatif.. buat saya, dengan tidak mengulangi kesalahan yang sama di kesempatan kedua sudah cukup menghargai kesempatan itu sendiri...masalah berhasil atau tidak?yaaaa mungkin memang itu apa adanya, atau juga saya benar-bernal GAGAL.. mungkin kita bisa menghargai diri kita dengan mengubah orientasi kesempatan kedua ini tentu saja tidak ada yang namanya kesempatan ketiga bukan???